A Heartfelt Goodbye to My Newsletter

Embracing Change and Growth

About 1.5 years ago, I launched my newsletter. Today, with a heavy heart, I announce its conclusion. Honestly, I can’t say I didn’t see this coming. It had become more of a task, just another item on my to-do list. It only brought me pride once completed, but my passion for it faded. I no longer looked forward to writing it.

Change is unsettling for me. It always makes me anxious. Yet, I know it will eventually lead me where I need to be. The journey, however, can be long and challenging. I felt compelled to write about my newsletter because, truthfully, I always felt it wasn’t appreciated enough. So, in honor of its cancellation, I want to say goodbye.

The Beginning of My Journey

I want to share how it all began. I put so much effort into crafting the "perfect" layout. I spent countless hours curating a list of amazing creators to feature. There was sheer determination in promoting myself and gathering emails to send it to!

I started my newsletter with the hope of building a community. When I say I do this work to connect with people, I genuinely mean it. I have a strong desire to reach out to as many people as possible. I want to help them discover what they need within themselves. I aimed to create something that informed people about the services I offer. Self-marketing is challenging, and I wanted to provide an intentional offering of love, information, and hope.

Initially, it was heartfelt and complete. But as I sought feedback and looked for MORE from it, it lost its charm. I’m not seeking sympathy; I just want to bring people together in a harsh world that grows more difficult every day.

The Creative Process

I enjoyed creating these newsletters. I loved thinking of cute backgrounds to match the month. I even enjoyed selecting the creators to feature. Gathering information for the month’s astrology, witch tips, and various tarot spreads was a labor of love. I poured a lot of thought and creativity into it. I even added my own monthly reflections and pulled a collective message.

I’m learning to recognize when it’s time to let go. It might not be forever, but if my heart isn’t in it, I need to move on. I think I’m struggling because I’m shedding the person I was two years ago. I was constantly searching. But now, I don’t need to search anymore. I know what I’m looking for is already here: the peace, the community, the feedback, the constructive criticism, and the valuable engagement. It’s here, and while it might not be on a large scale, I can’t continue to be ungrateful.

Honoring My Journey

I created this space to honor my own flow and to help others honor theirs. I’ve always promised to be authentic, and this is me doing just that. I can’t help being human, insecure, and a bit ungrateful at times. It feels like my efforts go unnoticed. But I truly know how blessed I am. Letting go of this is a way to honor that gratitude and embrace change.

So, to my newsletters—thank you for the purpose you served. You showed me that I can create. You reminded me of my artistic, intelligent, and organized nature. You gave me confidence in marketing myself. I’ve truly grown so much in the past two years.

Looking Ahead

I don’t need to desire what I already have. I don’t need to be seen when I already am. Here’s to embracing that. I don’t really know what’s next, but I am open to whatever comes.

It’s been a joy—my final newsletter will be for September. In numerology, the number 9 symbolizes cycles, completion, and wisdom. It makes perfect sense to me that this is the month to conclude this wonderful project. Perhaps it’s not a farewell, but a ‘see you later’ to my wonderful anchor. It’s time for growth. I love you deeply. Thank you for everything you’ve cultivated in me.

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