Here's To October

I think that being honest and authentic with myself is the most beautiful act of love that I have ever given to myself.

Truly allowing myself to sulk in bed until the very last minute, even though my I definitely need a new mattress, and my bed is not comfortable at all and makes my body ache. Allowing myself tears that seem ridiculous to shed simply because I'm proud of a stranger. Allowing myself the overthinking spiral until my heart races entirely too fast.

The word for September had to be Allow. I was completely not resistant to what life has been throwing my way. I don't feel rested? Okay then nap. I don't really tell myself no. I am working on telling myself yes more often in fact and it feels damn good.

It's 2:22 on October 1st. In the spirit of allowance, once my brain thought about possibly writing a new blog post, I told myself to go right ahead. I am just really trusting and I guess in trusting - I must allow life to happen and not let it change my own energy, but at the same time, if my energy is swayed, it's okay. Allow it.

The more I walk this journey, the more I start to think that inner peace makes no sense lol. You literally just try to remain happy to exist regardless of the state of which you are existing in. Now I don't know about you, but that seems ridiculous to me. And maybe happy isn't the right word for that but always believing that you're going to be okay no matter what - is a different kind of power!

So, what is October's word?

Let me sit with that for a minute. Hold on.

October's word is "Receive"